I love you son. / Mom
Dearest Markie, how are you today honey? What are you doing? Yesterday, Alyssa went with Mark Jr. and Jessica to the mall. They went school shopping for your son. He’s getting real big! Mom, Dad, Mack and Tony drove out to Brooks to a ranch that Grandpa has been taking care of lately. It was alright out there, except for that we couldn’t take Mack off his leash. He probably would have gotten hurt or something.
Alyssa and Patricia woke up early this morning and went bowling with Aunt Rita and Uncle Danny. Afterwards they went to a flea market and then out to lunch. Mom and Dad went for a walk to the store to get a few things. We’re going to take Mack for a walk when it cools off a bit.
What are you going to do? Mom sure wishes she can see you now. Wish you were here to go for walks with me. Mom thinks about you all the time kiddo, not a minute goes by that I don’t. I love and miss you so much , I can’t believe you’re gone. I’ve been having lots of nightmares. I keep waking up and I’m crying for you. Son, you’re going to be loved and remembered forever. Never forget how much you’re loved and missed. Until I see you again, have a beautiful time in heaven. Loving you always and forever. Love, Mom Close
Today is 4 1/2 years since you've been in heaven. I love and miss you so much. Mom had a dream of you last night, I dreamt that I was never going to see you again my precious child. I woke up crying, god it hurts so much. I hope you are having a beautiful day honey, I hope you're making all your dreams come true. Mom can't wait to see you again, I'm so lost without you. Maybe if you get a chance, you can come visit Mom in her dreams tonight. I would really love that, even if you can just stay for a few minutes, that'll be fine. I need to know how you're doing Markie. Mom is going to love and miss you everyday for the rest of my life. Can't believe you're truly gone my sweet angel. Loving and missing you always. Love, Mom Close
I love you & miss you.... / Marie Segovia (Adrian's Mommy )
Time can never truely erase who you were and still are to me....
No one really knows what happened with us....except us and maybe craig....even he doesn't know anything but that one night he was at my house with you....
I keep trying to remember what you smelled like, or what you felt like when you held me close but as with all old memories they are beginning to fade...
It saddens me to know that you are slipping away just like my mom and so many others have previously...
What I do know and will never forget is that you came to me at a time in my life when I was completely destroyed emotionally, and I couldn't imagine trusting anyone with anything....especially not my heart....while I can't say that we were each other's one true love, you were my saving grace....I don't know where my life would have gone if I had not met you...I think...no I know that you saved me from self-destruction....
We went through a lot together in a very condensed amount of time...the phone calls...the drama from the other women in your life, but one thing never changed....we never really fought or called each other names...we never hated one another...we just understood that our lives were destined to cross, and we respected one another's differences....
You made me feel special and safe when I thought that all was lost forever....from the walk in South city...to the meeting at the BART station..to eating at In & Out...to eating at Red Robin..and everywhere and everything in between...you just knew how to make me feel okay...I know that God brought you into my life for a reason....I just wasn't sure why he gave you to me just to take you away again....I think now I understand that he allowed us to separate our relationship, because he knew that I could not be as strong as Jessica...I could not lose you the way that she did and still wake up everyday....While I cared for you deeply our relationship never got to the true love stage, because if it had and I lost you at that time in my life I may have not recovered. You know the devastation I went through when your mom called me and told me that you were gone...I couldn't function...the tears fell like rain and they didn't stop for the longest...I couldn't eat...I couldn't sleep and most of all I couldn't feel anything besides pain and loss....I was attached to you in an unconventional way; however, it was one of the most vital connections of my life....If we had taken it farther I know that it would have ultimately consumed me....in a way it already does...I think of you everyday and I pray that one day I will find a way to bring those who did this to you to justice....
Your son Adrian would like the same thing...Strangely enough, he has decided to become a cop....he wants to stop people from hurting others and more than anything else he wants the world to be a better place...He is so young, but he is wise well beyond his years...I look at you everyday through his eyes, and my husband sees you too...See, he knows me inside and out and he sees that a lot of who Adrian has become is not me at all...The way he smiles...his eyes....I just wish that you had been able to hold him that time I went to Frisco when he was 4 weeks old...I regret not calling your family, but to be honest I just didn't want to hurt Jessica....you know how I used to be....hurt myself to stop the pain of someone else....and in the end, it causes me the greatest heartache because I am the reason your son never got to feel your embrace...and my attempt to stop the drama with Jessica ended up with your family not even believing that he is your son....I should have been stronger...I should have fought harder...not necessarily for us...but for you and him...I was young and I thought I was doing what was best for you and Markie....and maybe I was also just afraid of rejection...I was so fearful that because I was not your number 1, that you would just decide to not be there at all...but that mode of thinking came from those phone calls...that person who told me those things about you over and over and over and over...until finally I just said ok...you win....I will stay out of his life...I want you to know that I am sorry....that your son is okay....that he has a father now....someone that will never replace you, but someone who loves him more every single day....and Adrian is a great boy! He has grown so fast, and he is the best big brother anyone could ever ask for...He loves his siser and I know he would protect her at all costs....Just how you felt about Alyssa....
Our time was short, and life and bad choices made it even more so...but one day I will see you again and all will be right....until then...I hope you know that I love you...not because of what we shared, but because of who you were...what I missed and what we created....
Hi honey, how are you doing tonight? Everyone loves and misses you Markie. As you already know today is Dad's birthday. We took him out to eat at Everett and Jones, he liked it. They gave him a piece of cake and we all shared it also. Sure wish you were there precious angel. You're in our hearts always though and that will never change.
Mack wasn't feeling so good a couple of days ago. Not sure what was wrong with him, but he's doing much better now. Do you remember when we got him? Now look at him, 11 years old. He misses you Markie, he still looks in every car for you when we take him for walks. He still snores too, loud!
Markie, not a day goes that we don't think of you and pray that you are fine. Please come and visit us in our dreams if you have some time. We'd love to see you and talk to you honey. We love you Markie, never ever forget that.
Until I see you again son, take care of yourself. I'll love and miss you everyday for the rest of my life. Mom can't believe you're gone, it hurts so much my beautiful child.
Have a beautiful evening. Sending you my love, hugs and kisses.
Hey luv, so i thought i would come by an say hello.. hope all is well wit u.. an u can see wat is goin on here.. right now lifes good ya know how that goes...either its all good or its all bad.. lol.. lets c.. so nothing new here.. just livin ya know.. markies gettin so big, hes so smart.. he is the 1 of 2 kids that knows the days of the week in order.. lol.. he's so smart.. i'm hoping rather then goin to kindergarden i can challenge that an have them put him in 1st grade he is 2 smart i swear, he says big words at the right time, its funny, lil comedian we got 2, he's so funny sumtimes.. he such a lovin lil boy, errynite b4 we go to bed, he has a routine he says to me, "nite mommy, luv u.. kiss kiss, sweet dreams", lol, an i have to say errything he says back.. lol, hes funny.. i always wonder how life would be if u were here, how u would b wit him, how he would b wit u, but i'll never truly know, all i can do is wonder.. sum things that he does reminds me so much of u, like he loves bacon, an breakfast, i never cared for it, still dont, but he does, he loves to walk around wit no socks er shoes, an i know u didn't like havin urs on either, hes facinated wit motorcyles, u were too, ders other stuff that he does that i jus think of u when he does it. He's alot like me tho, in other ways.. lol.. no1 but me ur fams will ever truly know ur whole life, i know that i am one of the only persons who kinda grew up wit u, well also joseph an a few other people, but not only was i ur baby momma, i know i was ur first tru love, sumtimes i go back an look at pics of us, an old letters from when u were in da group home, the stuff we used to talk about i swear was 2 funny, ima show markie everything i can so he can know of u, an wat type of person u were.. as much stuff we went thru, the times where we hated eachother, nothing can ever replace the luv we have for eachother, it took me time, an even after u passed, i still didn't know if i could forgive u for stuff that u did 2 me, but i'm so over it now, i will never bring up anything we did to eachother to our son, because he does not need to know that, he needs to know only things that will bring him joy, an happiness.. well enuff with that, just wanted to let u know.. that its been too long since i seen ur face, heard ur voice, but no matter how much time goes.. we will never 4get u.. JESSICA & UR #1 LIL MAN MARKIE JR...
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To All Those Who Loved Mark & A Poem For Randi... / Marie Segovia (ex-girlfriend)
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September 26, 2005 • Monday
9:30 AM - Poems Current mood: sad Category: Writing and Poetry
Time can not explain The depth of this mother's pain Her heart filled with joy For the birth of her little boy Little did she know After the summer would fall snow A winter so cold Her son she could no longer hold Strange as it may seem For her, he will always breathe For he is in her heart The place where every memory starts He is in the air Even when life seems unfair He is in the skies He is in the glimmer of those eyes The eyes of those he loved The eyes of the children he sent from above The life taken so soon Is the same life that will survive each moon For, his legacy lives on In a world not so far off His memories stay true In the hearts of each one of you But no one can compare their pain To the mother who lost her vein The very thing that gave her life Is the one she for now must fight To conquer this pain The truth she must gain The root of all evil must be unveiled Across the seas she must sail To find her son his peace To finally let her pain cease For those of you Who know the truth I plea on her behalf Please remove satan's mask For everyone else I ask Let us complete this task To ease this mother's pain We must find a way To honor Mark's memory Let's find where these sinner's creep This is a call to action To all of those who have the passion In their hearts & their minds Find the strength inside To end this mother's nightmare To allow this family to heal To put a smile on his sister's face To allow Mark to finally meet grace Alone it is to hard But together we can overcome all So in Mark's memory Let's help set his mother free From this eternal damnation To another sensation One of peace All other emotion's for her must cease She deserves more than I can say It is because of her that we found our way Mark was more than a friend He created a love for each of us that will never end...
Happy daddys day / Jess (LiL marks mom )
So i just wanted to come by an say hi, hope ur lookin down on our handsome son 2day... as we gave my dad, jr & anthony cards for daddies day.. i wondered if markie feels bad dat he does not have a dad..but as i thought that... i know that whether ur up der er here ur his dad... no matter wat..but now i am mom an dad... an my dads like his dad 2.. he knows dats papa... i doubt markie feels bad dat he doesnt have a dad.. cuzz he has errything he could ever ask for.. for that i am thankful... wel hun.. luv ya bunches... Close
How are you doing today my precious child? I hope you're doing fine and have all you need and want in heaven. I wish I could see you now and talk to you Markie. It's been such a long time kiddo. Do you see how your car is turning out? Daddy, Joseph and Tony have been working on it a lot. Did you see Dad drive it up and down the driveway? I visioned you in it, I wish you were here son. I hope you like the way it is so far. Everyone is over now and working on Joseph's motor now also. Dad said we have to go out soon and start looking for the interior for your car. It's going to be a show car, Mom will put a picture of it on your site when it's all done. We wonder how Mark Jr. is going to like it. He's getting really big, he's so smart.
Alyssa and BJ went to the mall for a bit. Mack is sleeping I think, I'm not sure where he is right this second. He usual follows me around everywhere, he's so sweet. Mom and Dad took him for a ride in the truck last night, he liked it. He thinks of you all the time Markie. Kiddo, if you have some time, even if just for a minute, come and visit Mom and let me know how you're doing. You enjoy your day my precious child. Mom will write again soon. Loving and missing you always and forever, Mom
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